16/365: love is my word

my one little (enormous) word for 2012 is "love." simply. love is all around. love is god. love is all you need. love is blind. love makes the world go 'round. love. love. love. love. love.

open. deep. accepting. free. laughter. sharing. easy. soulful. sexy. satisfying. stories. seeing. being seen. just being. giving. receiving. emotional. connection. listening. spiritual. uninhibited. fun.

love. the opposite of fear. my mom's friend jerry jampolsky wrote a book, "love is letting go of fear."

love, i am not afraid of you! i enter open doors and windows, fully, with open heart. and when the fear comes, because it always slips its way inside, i remind myself to let go, to let love in anyway. 

2012: the year of reminding myself. to love. just love. 

15/365: love of place

from early morning mountain trails -- complete with redwoods and oaks and eucalypts and dirt and bicycles and dogs and red cheeks in cold air -- to beach by harbor -- complete with sailboats and sailors and paddle boards and dogs and palm trees ... this is the northern california i know and love. the northern california i praise in my quietest moments, and my happiest moments. 

11/365: between there and here

transitions are important time frames. those moments just after there, before really arriving here. the essence of there still in my system. the longing to go back, to be there still, which makes it so much harder to really arrive and be here.

being here is the only true thing, the only thing that actually exists. yet i have an expert mind at replaying scenes. perhaps my mind will lose its capacity as i strengthen my capacity to be here. now.